Yes that's what I said
"NURSING".Last week my Kendal baby wasn't feeling well and she cried a lot. I remember holding her on the couch and I could not get her to stop crying. No cuddles or kisses could make it stop. No
blanky or baby could make it stop. And that's when the feeling came and I wished more then anything that I could just breastfeed her and calm her sweet cry and stop the tears.
This was the first time that the thought of never nursing again came into play. I feel like I owe a little something to that wonderful natural nourishment that the Lord blessed me with. So here it is..........
Matthew was my first baby to breastfeed. I remember being very nervous and a little frightened by the size of my breasts. I had taken a nursing class and I thought I was ready. After Matthew was born I can remember the nurses trying to help me get the hang of it. I think one even suggested the football hold which only made me cry because I remembered the video from my nursing class that suggested big breasted women use this method. The vivid images of the video did nothing for my nursing-esteem.
After I was in my postpartum room a Lactation Consultant met with me and it was like riding a bike. Once I could do it and Matthew could do it we were ready to roll. After I got home from the hospital I can remember figuring out when to nurse and what T.V. shows would be on while I nursed. I watched more of The Nanny, Bonanza and The Heat of the Night then any one person should ever watch. With Matthew I wasn't really aware of the blessing of time that nursing gives you. I weaned Matthew at 12 months.
Spencer my second baby was my hardest. Nursing became something that I never knew it could be and I never wanted it become again "A PACIFIER". Spencer was born with three hernias and had major bowel discomfort for the first three months of his life. He cried from 6pm to 8pm every night and throughout most of the day. The only way I could get him to stop crying was to nurse. Yes, demand fed! I am sure it didn't help his stomach problems but it soothed him and made my heart feel better. I loved my baby so much and it broke my heart to hear him in pain. Despite his tears and mine nursing brought us together. I remember very vividly the surgeon coming out to the waiting room after Spencer's hernia surgery and saying "Mrs.
Mecham your baby REALLY needs you ".
Spencer stopped crying all of the time but he still wanted to nurse every time I held him. Yes, I was a human drinking fountain. It got so bad that daddy had to hold him a majority of the time. At 10 months I weaned Spencer.
Maggie my third and first girl taught me about the gift of time. I had three kids at home all day and two of them were very energetic boys. Nursing Maggie was truly a gift from our Heavenly Father. Not only does it give them the nourishment they need but it gives mom the time to be with the beautiful life that she created. I remember just watching her, cuddling her and singing to her in our moments of nursing. I weaned Maggie when she was 12 months.
Kendal my fourth and last baby. In the hospital right after she was born without hesitation her and I became one. It was so natural to breastfeed her and I guess I looked like a
natural because my nurse laughed and said "when you are done are you going to tie her to your back and go back to work in the fields."
Again nursing Kendal gave me the gift of time to be with my baby. However this time it gave me even more, I was depressed for the first time in my life. I was having anxiety problems, self esteem issues, my house felt like it was closing in on me and I could not function normally when life got difficult. Nursing Kendal gave me a baby. A beautiful little girl that MY LB and I created together. She reminded me that the Savior loves me and blesses my life. When I sat down with Kendal at night in the darkness of her room to nurse her everything went away. It was just me and my sweet little baby girl. I weaned Kendal when she was 11 months.
Goodbye Nursing
And
Thank you for making me feel like a MOMMY
Matthew
December 4, 1999

Spencer
July 18, 2002
Maggie
May 21,2004
Kendal
August 24, 2007