Monday, September 28, 2009

21 miles and 13 hours

Once upon a time I thought I had discomforts, once upon a time I thought I had struggles, once upon a time I thought that I had emotional strain.... Once upon a time I forgot about my blessings.

Saturday My LB and I went on a 21 mile and 13 hour adventure of a life time. It was long, hard, scary, challenging, physically and emotionally draining and full of the beauties of creation. Am I sorry I went, "no way"! I needed this trip more than I needed an unplanned vacation to the beach. Would I ever do it again, "NO WAY"!


Sycamore Canyon is absolutely beautifully deceiving. When you first get into the canyon it takes your breath away with all of the beauty. (I guess I may have stopped and taken a few too many pictures). I love the outdoors and this was an absolute treat to witness such amazing sights.



The beauty of the green surroundings and the blue of the water lasted for about 4 out of the 21 miles. After this the trail turned into a VERY rocky creek bed and we spent the next 7 miles walking, hopping, stumbling and tripping over rocks in the heat of full sun. I never imagined that this could cause so much discomfort. My toes continually hit the front of my shoes (my toenails still ache), rocks would flip up and scrape my ankle bones (they are still bandaged), and my hip (the same one that hurt from carrying babies) started to ache something fierce. Yet there was still so much beauty inside the canyon. There were huge rocks that were magically transformed by water running through the streams wearing them down to look like grand sculptures. And the erosion of the canyon walls made the sights all around you magnificent to take in.



Still we wanted out of the rocks! So hello, short cut anyone? Of course the idea of cutting 3 miles off of the trip and getting out of the rocks was alluring. We found a place that looked like we could scale up to the trail without walking around. As we went into the cove to climb the rocks up we entered a mosquito nest and they were all over us. I could not believe how many there were. I quickly threw on my long sleeve shirt and put my hood on. It didn't take long to decide that this was not a good option. However, going back into the rocks was not a favorable option either. So we found a different place to go up.


It was a bit steeper but free of mosquito's. Which seemed great until we heard the rattle snake. It is a very creepy sound they make and as soon as I heard it I turned back down to Jeremiah fast (Matthew later warned me that I should have gone slow because Rattle Snakes can strike distances up to three times their length, know it all). I followed Jeremiah very closely passing by the rattling sound that seemed to be very close but we could not see it, CREEPY.

When we finally got to the top I was informed that the trail was actually located at the top of the plateau next to the one we were standing on, AHHHHH. Never fear Mr. GPS let us know that we could meet up with the trail by heading some direction (don't ask me). So we made our own trail through what became dessert terrain (not so pretty). It took some time to overcome the rattle snake fear but I got over it pretty quick when we realized we were VERY short on water. We were only a little over half way through the trip and we were short on water. We started the little sip, swish and make it last with 9 miles to go to the end.

We were headed in the right direction for the trail when we hit a wall, a rock wall. So hands first and then feet we scaled the wall and made it to the trail. That stinking elusive lightly traveled trail. When we hit the trail I was in awe at how fast the men were hiking, it was truly amazing. I began to understand why they didn't think the hike would take more than 7 to 8 hours. I kept up though determined to get this hike behind me.


The trail was a big fat stinker and kept forking off and heading in different directions. Of course we lost the trail a few times and ended up taking time to find it again. After another 5 miles or so of hiking it started to get dark and we had between the three of us a few swallows of water, three handfuls of grapes and one flashlight. So when we hit the highest point of our trip and only had about 4 to 5 miles to go to get down we stopped drank the water, ate the grapes and prepared ourselves for the journey back down into the canyon and out. Only we lost the trail again.

Now we are at the top of a canyon wall needing to go down with no trail and surrounded by straight drops down to the canyon below with bodies that needed water. The only way we would make it down would be to find the trail. After about 40 plus minutes of looking for the trail we decided to say a prayer to our Heavenly Father to help guide us out of the canyon. Now Jeremiah who told me he was 100% sure we would make it to the car got teary eyed as he prayed (not a good sign, but since I don't know anything about GPS or directions for that matter I just had to trust and have faith). We decided to rethink our process and start off again. Jeremiah was in the front with the GPS following the contours of the trail, Jeff was behind him with the head lamp and I was standing as close to Jeff as I could.


To explain the pain our bodies were in at this time and give you the best idea of how we felt I will say this; we had cacti in our hands and legs, blisters on our feet and bruises and scratches that we didn't even know about until we got back to our vehicle (shoot now you know the ending).

So now we had our new plan and we were following Jeremiah who to the best of his ability was following the contours of the trail on the GPS. This led us to a drop that was about 5 to 6 ft down instead of , well all the way down the canyon. So Jeff went first and I used his leg as step to get down and then I held to the rock so not to drop down again while Jeremiah came down behind me (after he handed the dog down, I didn't mention there was a dog, there was a dog). So now on my behind I scooted down another 4 to 6 ft until I got to where I could actually stand.


Now this is where the goodness of our Heavenly Father comes into play and our faith and hope strengthen. As I began to walk I looked down and noticed we were on the trail. It was a an amazing feeling to know that in the middle of the night in a canyon in Arizona our Heavenly Father heard and answered the prayers of three lost souls. We stopped offered our gratitude and started the steady decent on the trail. Again those men can really roll when they have a trail.

Just like before the trail would fork and you had to choose which way to go. Only this time I was NOT going to get off of the trail and I would not keep walking until we tested each route with the GPS and found the one that we should take. We followed the trail down, down, down until we were at the creek again and it told us to cross. So we crossed the water up to our knees and splashed our faces and our heads, it felt so good! The dog was SO happy!

After we crossed the water and found the trail we realized that we had to go up, up, up to get to the Suburban. BIG UP, STRAIGHT UP, LIKE STAIRS! I wanted out! The wetness of my feet opened all of my blisters so I started to feel them for the first time, MY LB was hurting from dehydration and we knew that the Suburban had sports drinks, water and ice. So we pulled together one more time and started up for the last time before we reached hiking freedom.

When I reached the top I plopped down on the last step and just sat, we did it. 13 hours later and we finally did it. MY LB gave me a kiss when he past me and I just wanted to curl up in his arms and cuddle. We made it!!


It has been so long since I have felt this kind of emotional and physical discomfort. It has also been a long time since I have felt the Lords hand in my life so strongly. It is an amazing thing adversity, how it changes your outlook and gives you a new glance at your life. I am so blessed, what an ignorant person I have been.

This experience makes me think of a quote from a book that I read recently. The book was actually a commencement speech for College Graduates. The author (sorry not sure) gave a brief description of people complaining about their lives, about modern comforts and about wanting and needing more and she said this, "COME ON, look around we are surrounded by an embarrassment of riches." I know she was talking about financial wealth but I spin it this direction for me.......

Our house is worth way less then we owe, my husbands job is going to keep us in Arizona forever, it's hot and I just want to be outside, keeping up with the house is just too much work, raising four kids with respect and work ethics is sucking the life out of me, I just want time for me, Dave Ramsey's financial prison I mean freedom is making me CRAZY, I need I mean want to buy paint for the front room, our Scout callings are challenging and time consuming, I have on some kind of friend repellent lately, the gifted program at the school stinks...........


"COME ON, look around you are surrounded by an embarrassment of blessings"

What a hard yet valuable lesson that I learned. A wake up call! Believe it or not I never cried, nope not at all. UNTIL, on the way to school Monday I had a rush of emotion and I looked at my kids and I just started to cry and I wanted to take them home and never let them leave my sight. I couldn't believe it! The emotions were so strong and I kissed them goodbye and I cried all the way home. I don't know why all of the sudden the emotions hit me like that (maybe because the body pain decreased a LITTLE). But I do know that I am seeing things differently and I hope that it lasts because a REALITY CHECK the hard way STINKS.

Count Your Many Blessings



Name Them One By One

Count Your Many Blessings

See What God Hath Done


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Just a little push and some seeds

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A couple of Sundays ago a great man volunteered his services to help any family in the ward that desired to start their garden. After three years of having a lonely white picket fence with no garden to protect we decided that we needed to be that family. Early Saturday morning we gathered up our tools and with the help of this great man we started the unstartable.

A GARDEN!!

A few things...

1. The kids were so excited that it was all they talked about for the entire week (now we are on to, when will it grow?)
2. It was easier then I thought it would be. I pictured the dirt being more perfect, what is perfect dirt?
3. We planted; cucumber, lettuce, carrots, onions and snap peas.
4. Brother Montgomery was amazing with the kids. I was a bit nervous but they listened to him and worked right along side him (maybe to close sometimes).
So you see, just a little push in the right direction was all we really needed.
Thank you Brother Montgomery!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Random Thought

THE PUBLIC POOL IS FULL OF POOP

Friday, September 18, 2009

When I Grow Up

Just a little ventilation
Thanks for listening
I am loud and try not to be. I hate that about myself. I am the fifth of six kids and as a child I was easy to miss (but not as an adult). I guess I learned how to make myself heard. To bad that my methods of being heard included sarcasm, loud laughter and interruption. I wish this wasn't so because now I have really great friends that hear me no matter what. YET, I still use the obnoxious methods of being heard. I am sorry, friends!


A wise old owl lived in an oak
The more he saw the less he spoke
The less he spoke the more he heard.
Why can't we all be like that wise old bird?

When I grow up I want to be a "wise old owl"

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Funny of the Day

You would think that someday I would catch on.
The other night while I was reading to Maggie before bed Spencer came barging in with good news. "Hey mom you know my plant in my room? You know how all of the leaves fell off? Well right where I took off the last leaves that were dead it is growing two new leaves."
I was shocked, "Wow Spence I guess you have a green thumb. Great job?"
I am not sure how he does this I guess he has a gift. But as if everything is on the up and up he replies, "Thanks mom I guess I am a natural plant grower."
I continue to congratulate him and we go on with the evening.
The following morning while making his bed this is what I found.

How Does He Do That?

Random Thought

Sunday Rituals, gotta love them.


Do you have any?

Friday, September 11, 2009

What was that? I can't seem to remember.


I need me one of these!

Men In Black Memory Eraser
This device will clear up your memory within a flash. It would come in handy in every situation especially if you have a tendency of screwing up everything. Did you mess up the work at office? Flash it at the boss. Is someone angry with you? Give him a flash. Did your lover dump you? Flash it at yourself! I can solve every problem of this world using this gadget.

Wow yesterday was the afternoon from "Yuck Town". It has been a long time since I have been a CRAZY mom. The out of control kind that looses her head and her words just heave out like VOMIT, word vomit. Let me explain.

First off picking up the kids in the heat is the Crap, Crap,Crappiest thing I have to do Monday through Friday. My mind gets foggy, my feet begin to burn, sweat drips and my eyes become all to comfy with the bright. So when I get home I am a "MESS". My head hurts, my clothes (all million layers of them) are wet, my feet are producing some sort of steam from the quick introduction to AC and I can't see a stinking thing except little bright spots. I HATE IT!!

Well on this particular day the heat and sun were not the worse source of energy sucking me up. THEY WERE, all four of them. As soon as I see them after school all they talk about is how they are going to sell tons of stuff from the dumb catalog and earn all kinds of prizes. Um, no we don't sell stuff. All the way home they tried to convince me how great it would be to win an IPhone or just a key chain would do, Please mom. I yelled something like, "I DON'T GIVE A STINK WE ARE NOT DOING IT". Because of all of the showing me stuff they could win and begging I kept running into them with the stroller and spilling my soda. JUST WALK!! I decided to fall back and let them get WAY ahead.

When I got home there was catalog sales paper, shoes, socks , back packs and agendas all over my freshly cleaned house. I yelled and then took a minute to regain visibility and yelled some more. Maggie being helpful said something to the tune of, " I got a yellow light today at school but I don't care because I am going to win prizes." That's when papers started flying into the garbage, tears started to flow and Maggie went upstairs for a nap.

Homework went exceptionally the same way. Lots of yelling, a little bit of doing, an unhappy toddler and no cooperation. This went on right up until we figured out we were running late for piano. Yelled a little, rushed out the door and threatened Spencer with his life he had another piano lesson like last week. That is when he kindly let me know, "Mom I actually do better with encouragement". Stink that bomb, right?

Turns out I just needed a little time to myself to BREATHE. Between the scorching school pick up, dumb school sales, yellow lights, fussing toddler, homework and endless kids needs my air had been clean sucked right out of me. I have to breathe or something horrible happens and I turn into Psycho Mom.

And now I need one of these....

For them..........

And maybe him.........

Because they are really great! AND when they get older and they are sharing stories about when they were younger (especially with their therapist) I want their stories to reflect this..........






And not what happened on a hot deserty September day after school.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Just Plain Beachy!

Labor Day weekend was "wonderful"!

I have been reading the book, The Highly Sensitive Person (for the second time) and finding that I have a lot (not all) of the qualities of a highly sensitive person. So I am taking my reading a step farther and trying to put some of the recommended strategies for overcoming, no coping with, learning to live with, no just plain enjoying being sensitive.

One of the recommended strategies was to take a vacation without planning anything more then the "where". So I did and honestly it was more difficult then I thought. I would be on the Internet and think, I will just peak at the Sea World and Zoo prices and see if there are any deals. Silly I know, but I didn't do it and we went to San Diego with nothing on are agenda. Just a place to stay close to the beautiful ocean beaches.

I could not believe how relaxed we all were. It was amazing! We spent a good deal of time in our hotel room playing uno, catching up on cartoon network and sleeping. Best part, I was o.k. with that because I had no plans. Nowhere to be before the crowds came and lines began. I didn't even plan family pictures (which I really wanted to) so we didn't even have to beat the sun.

What does this have to do with being highly sensitive? Well, the highly sensitive person becomes very focused on plans and agendas and they are VERY easily upset when things begin to unravel in a way that was not planned. Or they over plan and become fatigued and again VERY easily upset. Or the crowds, noises, and anxieties of entertaining children becomes to much to handle and again they become VERY easily upset.

So here it is the results of our unplanned vacation....

We spent hours at the beach every day. I can't believe how long the kids (and MY LB) can just play in the sand. They were at it for hours and their creative juices were overflowing. We all enjoyed jumping, racing, diving into and body surfing the waves.




We visited the park for a picnic and put on our roller blades for some added entertainment (for everyone watching). I have a bruised butt from agreeing to a Conga line with the boys.

The Beach is so beautiful at sunset. After a YUMMY wood fired pizza dinner we decided to stop and take a walk at the beach and watch the sunset.





Other Highlights...
Food was so yummy
Church is true in San Diego
Hotel Pool was a BLAST (pictures coming)
Got another swimsuit top (I am collecting them)
Best of all LOTS of family time
As far as this sensitive person is concerned everything was perfectly unplanned.
Except for this picture, that was totally planned.
Yeah Me!
(we might have watched some Disney Channel too)